I Am

I am a deeply conflicted and struggling tenant farmer 

I wonder what the future will be like 

I hear 

I see the bus that takes me to work in the morning

I want to feel free from harm

I am a deeply conflicted and struggling tenant farmer 

I pretend that everything going on is fine 

I feel the presence of god

I touch my wife's soft hair

I worry about the future

I cry for my now-grown-up son

I am a deeply conflicted and struggling tenant farmer 

I understand the situation going on here in family

I say oh lord

I dream for a fair future

I try to be hopeful

I hope to be happy

I am a deeply conflicted and struggling tenant farmer.